Inspiration born out of Frustration – Yes!!!!

I’ve been feeling restless today. Yes, I am a restless soul – with no place to rest and no place to hide. But I’m looking for a perch to plant my butt on- just haven’t found it yet.

So what do I do when I’m restless? I usually wander around wondering what is wrong with me or what I’m going to do with this misguided, unused energy. I do, however, have a couple of outlets. Writing is one, but writing doesn’t always come easy and I’m not always in the mood. My thoughts must be clear to write, and when my thoughts are clouded with severe restlessness, writing is out – can’t really do it.

My second outlet – ahhhh… that is the one I’m pleased about today. See, I play guitar and while I’m not the best guitar player, I do enjoy sitting down and strumming my heart out when I’m feeling kind of lost. That’s what I did today. Yup. I did. And, occasionally – no very rarely – when things are really kind of up in the air, I actually manage to write a song. Now, sometimes when I write the words come first and other times, the music. More often than not, I have words and no music (because I like to write.) Today is different . . . yeeesss! I have the music (I even ran around like a chicken looking for the digital voice recorder (which I couldn’t find, darn it ) and had to settle for plugging a microphone right into the computer lest I forget the chord and strum pattern) – just the beginnings of a song, but the beginnings. Sweet music to my ears!!!

I’m pretty sure I’ve got a good idea of the words that will be going with the song, but that will take some time. The music has a mood to it – a distinct mood – and I must make sure that the words match that mood. For now, I will be taking the time to treasure the sense of satisfaction that comes from finally being able to express myself in ways other than direct words and finding a place to hang my restless hat.

Catch ya on the flip side.

Breaking the ties of Real Life – Conformity and Morality

I had an interesting discussion with someone today. I can’t really remember how it all started, but the general gist was about conforming in Real Life (RL) and participating in Second Life (SL) and further, whether or not we bring our own morality into how we act in SL. The end result of the conversation was me stating that I will not sit and judge anyone for their actions in SL – people can say, do, act, and with whomever they please on SL. That is their free will, their right – and with this right, comes responsibility. The responsibility is theirs to solely own. That’s it – period.

I will freely admit, as I have discussed in other blog entries that I am struggling to learn to let go of the things which constrain me in real life. I am a control freak – my whole life is scripted, but SL is a place to let go and if I am to worry that someone might be judging me and my actions and deciding whether they are moral or not, then I will be further impeded in my efforts. I have to set this thinking aside. In essence, SL is a chance to explore things which are outside of what I would normally do – if someone wants to judge them as good or bad, moral or immoral, go for it – but it is my place to be me.

So, what am I trying to say? Hmm… if you run across me in SL, or if you already know me, be yourself. I appreciate that people will be concerned about what I may or may not think, but ultimately it is my choice whether I choose to stay and participate, or delicately excuse myself and find other ways to occupy myself. And, conversely, I should expect the same of others. Respect, dignity … these are things we cherish in RL, and well, to be honest, things we should respect in SL too.

Have fun, be yourself, don’t worry about me.

Catch you on the flip side.